A change from usual!

Ok so I have decided to use this blog as something better than just an outlet for the occasional mopings of my miserable little life. I've been thinking about this - and I thought it would be a good idea to, rather than sharing only the bad things, share something awesomely excellent (or at least to me!) - where I can see God in my life. If I were to put everything it would be a friggin tome, so I'm just going to put some things which stand out to me once a week or so.

Some crap has been happening in my life recently - and I've come to realise that most of it is my fault. Not in the obvious way, but in that I was too cowardly to go ahead and do things when God was telling me to, because they were unpleasant for me and I was being a blind optomist. What has been overwhelming in the last few days for me is the enormity of His kindness and forgiveness. Although unknowingly, and not because of anything I did as such, but what I didn't do, I was taking one of His children away from Him, one who was clinging desperately to Jesus. In my ignorance, I blindly continued this until my friend finally brought it up, and had the bravery to do something about it. God had been telling me that this was happening, but I refused to believe it - I thought, I can make things better, we'll work it out by ourselves, it'll be fine. We just need some time. Clearly this was not the case.
However, that's not the real point of this - it's that, when I found out that I was getting in between my friend and God, I was mortified - even though I'm definitely not perfect, I never wanted to do something like that. I had done the most horrible thing to my friend without knowing. I was already hurting, but this hurt so much more. So I cried to God to forgive me, knowing that in no way do I deserve it, but instead of punishing me, He took away my pain. And I thought. How amazing. How illogical. Who, when having something good taken away from them, takes away something bad from the person who's committed the crime against them?? Repaying a bad deed with a good one. I don't think I really realised how vast God's love and forgiveness is. Then I read something in a book:

If there is something you think you can't possibly be forgiven for, think again, because you've already committed the greatest crime - and that is killing Jesus with your sin. You have already committed this sin, you have caused the only innocent to be charged with your own sin, and if God can forgive that, then how much easier it would be to forgive a lesser crime.

Hooray for Jesus!!!!


P.S. I also saw something today that made me giggle - two adolescent ducks were swimming one behind the other and dipping their heads in the water to eat or something, but then the one behind got all enthusiastic and rammed into the one in front's bum and the one in front was all BLUFAWENFAJA. :D